Expression

I have always found myself tongue-tied whenever it came time to say something - anything - important. Whether it is defending my opinion, expressing the beauty I see, or describing deep emotion or praise, I find my words get twisted and I walk away feeling... stupid. There, I said it. No one seems to make me feel worse about myself than I do - so critical, so self defeating. For this reason above all others I find I am relieved and excited to have this new form of expression. I am starting to express myself through painting like I have not been able to with words.

I know, I know, I am only getting started and I have so much to learn. I don't find this concept limiting; rather I find it freeing. Painting, especially with pastels, is new and fresh and allows me to express myself like I can not with words. I would love to paint something every day. I would love to offer my mind this amazing release, to get the expression flowing, every single day of my life. I wonder - if I become better at expressing myself through art, will I find a way to do it better with words? Just a thought.


On the business side of things, I got my business cards in the mail today. Makes it feel official. I hope I do not seem pretentious by establishing myself as a professional artist this early in the learning process. I do not claim to have "arrived" or to do it better than anyone else - I DO claim to finally be able to express myself in a new way, one that I feel can bless you and your family for years to come. I am so happy to finally have a way to express life as I see it, Through My Own Eyes.